Month: December 2013

Conceal, Don’t Feel

I am a thinker. A muser. Sometimes I have great thoughts. Sometimes I think too much. Rarely have the words inside of me made their way out. Because I care. Because I’m compliant. Because I’m nice. Silence has saved me. Silence has wrecked me.

The spoken word is difficult. The written word allows for thoughts to be edited, changed, just right. I don’t want to be silent anymore. I have good thoughts. Thoughts that don’t just spew out of my mouth, but are carefully pondered. Thoughts that deserve a voice. Thoughts that could make others take notice. A blog seemed to be the perfect voice for me.

The fear of rejection has kept me silent. To afraid to value me. To afraid to let my words be heard.

A combination of a few things this past year have helped me to learn about myself. And as crazy as it sounds, what pushed me over the edge was the new Disney movie “Frozen.” One review I came across stated that the movie is “Quietly revolutionary, or boldly feminist, or just a well-told story being true to itself?” (Robbie Collin 12/4/13) The lyrics to the songs touched a cord deep inside of me.

20131229-173825.jpg Copyright Disney 2013

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door
I don’t care what they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway.

It’s funny how some distance
Makes everything seems small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can’t get to me at all

click here and choose “Let it Go” to view the scene from the movie

Powerful words, that added to the other things I’ve learned about myself (Perhaps I’ll touch these in other posts) helped me decide it’s time to put a stop to the silent musing. Well, let me rephrase that::: there will be plenty of silent musing still………..but now I’m ready to find my voice.