Month: March 2014

On adoption: Opening the door of a closed adoption




After many years of putting off a decision, I have finally decided to search for my birth parents. I’m terrified, excited, nervous, anxious, curious, overwhelmed, and filled with hope. I have no idea what I will find or what the outcome will be, but whatever it is, I just need to find my beginning.

Thankfully I have someone who has done this before and is coming alongside me to guide me, help in the search, and give resources and support through this journey. For starters we are using the clues I already have. Depending on the outcome, in time I might need to raise some money to help me pay for a search. There are a lot of mixed emotions and though I’m ready to open the door, there is still a lot I want/need to do to prepare myself.

I’ve cracked this door open before. Put my information up on an adoptee search sight. Examined what I would have to do through the adoption agency. Called the adoption agency and hung up when they put me on hold. I’ve always closed the door. I wasn’t ready. Once you open the door all the way it’s hard to close it. There are unknowns on both sides of the door and I’m tired of standing at the door.

I have so much going on in my head, that I don’t even know what all to share. So for now,  I will just close by saying this: thank you to those of you who will support me through this; and to any who may not understand the need for a search, please support me anyway.


“Perspectives” Day 1 – Featuring Rhegan Stansbury “

Check out my guest blog on “perspectives.” Are you ready to move mountains?

Pastor's Ponderings

Image Day One


One stone at a time 

by Rhegan Stansbury 

Image Taken in Turkey


Have you ever climbed or at least seen a mountain? Growing up in a Midwest state with wide open spaces and few hills, mountains have always been an amazing sight to me. As a teenager I got the opportunity to climb a small mountain in Colorado. A challenge, but doable, and the sight at the top was breathtaking. 

In  Matthew 21:21 Jesus says a pretty memorable thing about mountains. “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea, and it will be done.”

 When you have a mountain frame of reference in your mind and you read the words of Jesus in Matthew, it is easy…

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